Sometimes I Feel Like I Think about my faith like Francis Chan but want to be a conservative stay at home my mom...

Probably sounded pretty arrogant to open with saying I think about my faith like Francis Chan. But I do in many ways. I think I should be hearing more from the Holy Spirit. I think the church should look and be different in many ways. I want to love the orphan and the widow and tell them about Jesus and how He wants to save them. But see the thing is I grew up as a little girl who wanted to be a mom and teach my children Bible stories and rock them to sleep and pray for them. And unfortunately I am not doing either of these right now. I am not loving the orphan and the widow well and I have no babies to rock to sleep. Sometimes does the life we thought God put in our hearts not happen or does He tell us to wait? I don't know. But as I am about to start a nursing job in Raleigh, you know what I am most excited about? Getting involved with an organization that cares for orphans and shares the gospel with them. Sometimes our passion is fueled by our tentmaking. People need tents, we should make them. People need help with taking care of new babies, I will help them. But hopefully it will fuel my passion to love and care for the orphan as Jesus calls us to. Just a short rambling today, but better than nothing. I know it has been 3 months again. If you read this and you pray to Jesus Christ, would you ask Him to guide my steps this next year as to where to work and what organization to join in helping care for the orphans? Thank you friends.